Stuck in a Rut

You know when you hit a brick wall when you are trying to do something and you can’t focus anymore until you tackle the impossible?  I am currently stuck on an issue for this guy who throws me work every now and then, and each time its always something much more difficult than it appears.  The worst part about this is that I’m not even getting paid for this particular job ‘cause it’s for his daughter.

The feeling is so intoxicating – something that is routine normally and then there is something in the task that throws you off.  In this instance its an infected/corrupted computer that I just can’t seem to get going properly.  I had a similar job this morning for another customer, and it was easy as can be to fix and get paid.  For this particular case, I seem to be hitting a dead end at each turn.

When you start questioning your own abilities is when I start getting really flustered.  I deal with these issues all of the time and it never stresses me out.  But for some reason I can’t get this machine working properly.  I’ve been racking my brains out and I have hit a point that I need to stop and walk away for now.  Unfortunately I told him I would have it ready for him yesterday.

Oh well, you can’t be perfect all of the time – but it seems like whenever I deal with this guy I hit these walls.  I spent a whole day up in Florence with him trying to recover a voice mail server that was a proprietary system that I just couldn’t fix once.  Before that he wanted me to look at a ten year old computer that he wanted to salvage, but none of my tools would work with it and it had damaged hardware that could only be replaced with outdated stuff that is just not available anymore.

Sometimes I think I should just ignore his calls, since he always has something that he explains as an easy issue and never really is.  Oh well. I’m sure its just in my head, but damn why can’t seemingly easy things ever be easy?

Update:

I'm no believer in horoscopes, but I thought mine for today was interresting:

[Tarot.com ] Your rational logic is now tied to the commitments you made but your instincts may be pulling you in a different direction. Your emotions are strong and it's going to be a tough battle to keep your more radical feelings in line. On the outside, all appears okay, but you are working overtime to make it so. Be gentle with yourself. Remember that you are human and you don't have to hide your uncertainties all the time.